|What I have noticed is how many more close friends I have made this year. I don’t mean just general friendships but people who really get me (and me them), people I can be 100% myself with but for some reason I haven’t always allowed this to happen prior.
I’m not a person to have hundreds of friends, although social media might give you a different impression. I’m incredibly happy in my own company and for that reason I think I’ve kept my heart quite closed to new and close friendships.
I can count on one hand the people that I feel love me inside and out and who I can be fully myself – the funny me, tired me, slightly drunk me, emotional me, party animal me, introverted, broken, spiritual me, – accepting no matter what part of me they are hanging out with.
In the past 9 months those core people have still been there more than ever but I have also found even more of those special souls, I didn’t actually realise I’d closed myself off to close friendships until now – I think it’s got a lot to do with growth in myself but also the need for support here in Oxford. I’ve let those people in and I am so happy I have, I feel very loved, accepted and cared for and all I needed to do was to open my heart.
I’m sharing this with you for a couple of reasons. Firstly to confirm to you that the journey of discovering ourselves is never ending and secondly PLEASE keep your heart wide open in a world where we are being encouraged to disconnect.
Allow others to support you as you don’t need to do life alone, no-one wants you to be perfect, people just want realism and authenticity.